Everyday struggle, i need help

Seems so arrogant to
put a shoe on my foot!
I cant understand my place
in an economy built on
endless growth and lack of
perspective and lack of meaning
and understanding of complex
interactions of all things
not plastic and not
packaged and
barcoded and
rational and
numbered and
traded
on
wall street
and dependent on
globalized systems
of control and coercion
and all of it being
a military exercise
and not knowing if it even matters
"at this point"
because
the
path was not created by me
but am i following something
i dont want to be supporting
because of how i was
programmed as a child
and how i came to
view the world
and which
brand
of
soda
my mom
bought for
my teenage self?
!!!!!!!